So I am sitting here wondering how to start this after that Title..   I thought 3 years ago I was creating my life with everything I was doing at the time, the workshops, the events, the daily stuff, I was supposed to do for all the things.  After the last 3 years of Shifts, Changes, Lessons and Blessings, I can say I was Dealing with the hand I was dealt and doing the best I could with what I was given and exhausted.

When I started working with Mentors to help me Shift my stinking thinking about life as I was exhausted from trying to help others while depleting myself.   I meant well, I always do and yet I was causing more harm to myself and those I loved more than I knew.  I had a lack of communication in some areas as it wasn't in a helpful manner.   Teamwork makes the Dreamwork I always believed in and yet I lacked the full communication skills to make it work as my own FEAR of my reaction to others and Not Feeling Good Enough would creep in.

With so many lessons in the last year of I create my own reality I have realized so much including that my thoughts (our thoughts) around things Create our Reality and what we Receive and how that momentum can either Catapult us in to a life we Love and say of course that happened or a Why the Fluff is this all happening to me all the time.   We bring whatever we think about into our reality, neither good nor bad it just is.  

If I think & tell someone it is a certain way or how to be, that's what will end up being.   When I notice what I am noticing, Shift my Thoughts to what I would Love.   Guess what, that happens to, what we focus on we bring more of.  

Silly big Family learning example was Last Sunday, I started doing laundry after putting it off since we got back. Yep lol  So the laundry was a big pile in our kitchen.  I did thankfully notice it was leaking before doing a second load & it finished the first load.    I checked it out to see if it was anything I could fix & found out nope.  Now the old Crystal would have Freaked cause that could hurt a pocketbook, anybody feel me on that.   I'm Frugal and They can be expensive, even used.  

So I let Tam know and we decide, nope not gonna panic.   We know some tips about things as that's how I thrived during the first part of Single parenthood, thankful.  So We talk about what we'd love, a Top load Washer, that no longer scares us on loads, lol.  No matter how many times we've replaced them with Used, something was a lil scary about each one, lol.  We are always thankful & yet they had their own personalities you could say.  

So we talk to Jazz and ask her wanna see how to do something you desire with a lil more ease & fun rather than Rushing to Get Her Done?   She was skeptical and still game, so we talked a lil about what each one wanted, no specific brands or anything like that just like White to match the other appliances, quiet, top loader and then Let it go.  No worries, no stress on the How's, in the knowing, it'll be there as we wanted, in our price range and in Divine timing.  We asked her to give us 2 weeks and the Key now is to focus on the things we Love, that bring us our daily happiness, while going about doing the rest of our lives in our Best life and we head off to bed. 

So Tam heads to work the next day and goes about her morning like usual and if you know her, that's her Zone & Happy place is working and Helping people.   I love and appreciate her Heart Space.   Then the morning goes by and she feels like calling and checking to see if there were any floor models that matched what we needed & no rush, keep an eye out.  And I kid you not, they had one come in, the right size, the right price & we picked it up after Tam was off work, Easy Peasy Lemon Squeezy.  

When we switched it out, we opened it and there was an owners manual.  This is a Y'all moment...Y'all I am 48 and have not seen an owners manual in a washer, for real.   That may sound funny to some and yet it means so much, I was always raised to Save money wherever and however, work hard, push hard and do whatever it takes to get the job done.  Too many times that ways and beliefs took hard tolls on my body, mind and spirit and left me inflamed, enraged and engaged.   

I truly am thankful for the beautiful people on my path that showed me ways to find my ease and flow of life.  It’s not a one and done, it’s a daily process and for that I am thankful.  I started this blog full of gratitude already for this week and so many shifts for the good in our lil Family and growing community, tribe and so much more than I hoped for.

  I was finishing this blog after enjoying a Beautiful day at the Giants vs Dodgers Game, where I thankfully enjoyed the day with all the lessons and blessings.  There was a time I had to step away from everyone and say no to things as I didn’t feel safe, I was having too many triggers to process and ground and it exhausted me.   

Today I am thankful for continuing to do the work for me to Feel Good Enough more and more and I love and appreciate different ways I use to do just that.  With the 3 Main things I Believe in, Change Begins in Me and Mindset, Motivation and Movement matter for overall Wellness in Mind, Body, Spirit...What would I love my life to feel like?  And So much more.   

I am grateful for the growing community we have in Partners in Believing, it’s not just about positivity, we have to do the work to see what the lesson is for us, not anyone else.  No one can fix me and I can’t fix anyone else, however, together We CAN help each find different ways to find our best overall wellness for Sure.

The funniest part of this blog is, it will be continued as more has been revealed since I did this blog and forgot to hit the Publish Button.  I love the lessons in life and learning to honor the Pause needed by all of us at times, it's taught me Self Compassion and Self Love, Thankful for the Shifts for me and my Family.   See you on the next blog.

Did you know we have 2 weekly check ins on Zoom?  We share stories to help support each other during these times and beyond, with safe space, openness, encouragement, empowerment, love and grace with Compassion and Kindness for where we are and who we are as unique individuals.   Thankful for the Space and Accountability with Grace while finding our individual solutions for our Best Lives


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